Writing actual stuff again?

So I started a profile on Wattpad and typed up a book I started years and years ago. Totally unfinished. I stopped writing cause I could figure out what I wanted to happen next. Ever since I started the advocare 24 day challenge I have been trying to do more things that I used to do or start doing things that I always said I would get around to doing. I feel like this is a very daunting task ahead of me. I am worried that I just might not have the creativity that I used to have. Before I hit my rebellious stage of doing drugs and having sex I wrote from the heart. When I read back on them now I can see some of the inspiration and some of the puppy love teenage angst that fueled my words. Then years later after I started enjoying illegal substances I would write and write and write. It seemed the drugs helped open me up and help me find the right words to express my feelings. But now that I am sober I don't know if I can reach that level again. A part of me knows that it was all me and I just have to find a way to make it happen again. The other part of me wonders if it ever really was me. The words I wrote in the stage of my life still ring true and I can see myself in them, but I still wonder. If I had never started doing drugs would I have written the same things only in a different way. To my untrained eye they are great works of art and to my close friends they are too. Well at least that is what they told me when I read my poems to them. But what will the world think? Will I just stay this girl that likes to write or will I infiltrate the great minds of my day? I think I am going to try to find the book the artists way and see if it will help ignite the fire inside me again. Wish me luck.

The beginning of the end

This is a test run to see if I will stick to a blog this time around. Not sure if I will ever get any followers. Don't think I really care if I do or not. I guess this is more of a way for me to get my thoughts out and have them saved on the interwebs. I am going to remain anonymous and will change the names of everyone I write about. Welcome to my life. Open the doorway to my mind and see what there is to see.